In with the New … Out with the Old

December 30, 2004

2004 is coming to a close. I thought I would write a bit about the year, but I decided against it. I could’ve prattled on about how bad a year it was in terms of the War in Iraq and the re-election of George “Dubya” Bush. I could have praised the year for being a great year in sports. Exciting Championships in Baseball and Basketball. And let’s not forget about football. The New England Patriots are nearly Perfect and Peyton Manning is playing quarterback better than it’s ever been played.

Or worse, I could have done a “It was the Best of Times. It was the Worst of Times.” kind of thing. Or I could have recounted my personal triumphs and defeats for the year, but who wants to hear that.

The Truth is that nothing will have changed on Saturday. It’s just a basic human need to categorized and label things. So we will take the events, memories and actions of the last 12 months and call them “2004.” And we store them away for a decade or two until VH1 runs I love the 00’s. Then we look at back and say how great it was in the first decade of the millennium.

There is one thing about this year that is worth mentioning in this space. 2004 is the year I starting blogging. And I discovered that blogging is not just an “online journal” it is more than that. It is a community. It is a very interesting form of media (for lack of a better word.) If I published a newsletter or a ‘Zine ( do they still do that?) I would not know my readers in the same way as I do here. In some ways the relationship is very intimate. I reveal some very personal thoughts. In other ways, it very anonymous, many of us do not even reveal our names.

So to the handful of you that read this space, Happy New Year. Not that anything will be different on Saturday, but I wish you well in 2005. And I hope you will continue to read, as I plan to continue writing.

I can’t get enough of these

December 29, 2004

This morning in my in box I received the following message:

Dear Mr. Jeckles,

I am Barrister Nelson Wear, a solicitor at law,and the Personal Attorney to Mr.Roland Jeckles, a National of your country, who used to work with Strabag construction Company in Nigeria. On the 21st of April 2002 my client, his wife and their two children’s were involved in a car accident along Sagbama Express Road Lagos, Nigeria. All occupants of the vehicle unfortunately lost their lives.

consequently, I have made several enquiries to your embassy to locate any of my client’s relatives, this has also proved unsuccessful. After these several unsuccessful attempts, I decided to trace his last name over the Internet, to locate any member of his family hence I contacted you.

I have contacted you to assist in repatrating the money and property left behind by my client before they get confisicated or declared unserviceable by the Citi Bank Plc where the deceased has an account valued at about[18 million Dollars]and the bank has issued me a notice to provide the next of kin to my late client or have the account confisicated.

Since then I have been unsuccesfull in locating the relatives of my clients for over 2 years now I seek your consent to present you as the next of kin to the deceased since you have the same last name so that the proceeds of this account valued at [18 Million Dollars] can be paid to you and then you and l can share the money. 50% for me and 40% for you and 10% will be used for any expenses that this might cost on the process of the transfer. I have all necessary legal documents that can be used to back up any claim we may make.

All I require is your honest co-operation to enable us see this deal through. I guarantee that this transaction will be executed under a legitimate arrangement that will protect you from any breach of the law. It is 100% risk-free. Please get in touch with me by my private Email;nelson_chembers2000@yahoo.com

Awaiting to hear from you soon.

Best regards,
Barr Nelson Wear

The thing that really cracks me up is that people fall for this. That’s natural selection at work right there. If your bored today why not send Mr. Nelson an email. Just drop him a line to say and thanks for being such a filthy weasel.

A Most Disturbing Dream

December 28, 2004

The other night I had a terrible dream. Yes, a disturbing one, actually (as you might have guessed from the title.)

It started out out as a pretty nice dream. I was hiking, backpacking to be precise. And, as often is the case in dreams, it seemed that I had no connection with my real life. No job, no family, just me walking. The best part was that I seemed to be in great shape. No trudging or slogging just me walking and enjoying it. After some indeterminate amount of time, I arrived at some sort of campground, obviously a destination of some reknown for backpackers. There I met some great people and they talked me into going to Georgia to thru-hike the Appalachian Trail. It didn’t take too much convincing to get me too agree. Especially since one of them was an attractive and very nice young lady.

So I headed out of camp with a new plan. I was very happy. I was getting ready to do something I had always wanted to do and I would be joined by the great group of people I had met at this camp. As I was walking, a group of unfriendly looking guys jumped out of the woods and surrounded me. The were armed with big mean looking guns and grenades and that kind of stuff. They looked like GI Joe action figures who had gone bad. Their leader stepped forward and starting screaming at me. I was terrified. I had no idea why this man was so angry with me. He was shouting about how me and my friends would not win this time and how my friends were not there to help me. I began to know (the way you only can in dreams) that this was some sort of game we were playing, but the stakes were very high. These guys were serious. I knew my life was in great danger. I also was no longer in the woods. I was in some sort of nondescript room. My friends burst through the door. The were the same guys I had met at the campground. (Except for the girl, she was to play no more part in this nightmare.) My friends were no longer dressed like backbpackers, they were now armed to the teeth. The leader of my group told the leader of the bad guys? that he’d better back off and that next time he tried to threaten one of us alone there would be hell to pay. The bad guys retreated from the room and for the moment we were safe. The grim look on everyone’s faces told me that this was only a temporary reprieve.

The leader of my people took me aside. He explained that the enemy was no longer respecting the normal rules of engagement. That sooner or later they would push it to a point that we could not recover from. There was a gravity to what he said that was tremendous. We were no longer talking about a game, we talking about the survival of our people. Their leader had to be killed. There was no doubt about it. The question was how could it be done without raising sympathy for their cause. And without giving his men something to rally around.

My leader had a plan and he needed my help. It was a simple plan, but sure to be effective. He looked me in the eye and told it to me in hushed tones.

“They will be coming thruogh that door any minute now, and he will be leading the way. I need you to take this gun and shoot me in the head, but angle it so that the bullet keeps going and also strikes him,” he told me.

I knew in my heart that he was … right. This was the only way. By killing both leaders any sympathy or martydom for the enemy would be cancelled out. Just then, the enemy burst through the door. I raised my pistol and aimed it squarely at my leader and my great friend. Behind him I could see my enemy advancing. I pulled the trigger without any hesitation or reservation. I ended the life of a great man but I had killed my enemy. In my heart I knew I’d done not only the right thing but a great thing.

I awoke. I knew I had done a horrible thing.

Free time

December 27, 2004

I have this week of from work. I do have to use some of my vacation days, but I don’t care. I need this badly. I am definitely experiencing some symptoms of burnout. I can tell, because instead of getting up this morning and taking advantage of this free time, i slept in. I never sleep in. I hate it when I do because I wake up and then feel like I’ve wasted my time off. I mean if I can get myself up and out for work, then I should be able to get my up for a little free time. I did, however, go to see A Series of Unfortunate Events with my oldest son. Very cool movie. I recommend it, even if you don’t have a child to use as an excuse for seeing it.

Hopefully, I’ll get some stuff done with the time off. I have a few things that I’ really like to take care of. I really do need to update my resume and test the waters with it. I need to do major cleaning of the areas of the house that contains my computer stuff, my backpacking stuff and my tools. I’d also like to get a Linux box or two set up and maybe even networked.

The week is young. If I don’t do all the those things it will probably be because we got the Extended LoTR Box Set and the Original Star War Trilogy Box set. That’s about 40 hours of quality movie watching right there.

When it rains it pours.

December 22, 2004

Have a mentioned that I’m not exactly thrilled with my job, lately.
Oh yea, I wrote a book about the other day.

Today, shortly before lunch, my File and Print / Domain Controller Server froze up. The display was still there, but the drives were non-responsive. This has happened before, not a huge problem but an inconvenience. I powered it down and then started it back up. It posted as usual, found the SCSI drives and controllers and then just hung. An hour and a half phone call with the Dell led to the conclusion that we experiencing a major hardware failure. Dell dispatched a technician and a boatload of new hardware. The parts arrived shortly before 4 and the tech arrived about an hour later. He replaced nearly everything excluding the drives of course.) Around 6:30 we powered it up and slowly but surely it booted. Yea.

The server had to then go through some steps to synch all the data back up on the drives. While this was going on my boss was chatting with the tech. He manged to bring up at least three times about how anyone who is unable to restore data on a server will be looking for work afterwards. Now, that may be true, but what’s the point of bringing that up while I’m sitting there waiting to see if the data is intact. I don’t know if that was supposed to be some sort of threat or if he thought it would make me try harder or if he was reflecting his own insecurities about what going on. I do know that I don’t like it. I don’t want hear about how I might get fired if everything somehow went wrong. For the record, I have every confidence that if the data on the server had been scrambled, that I would have been able to restore it from tape. If you need to fire me … then just do it and get it over with. But until that time let’s lay off the little off-hand comments cause they are messing with my Christmas Spirit.

Random Thoughts Volume III

December 20, 2004

Good news: I got an A in my ASP.NET class. A 99.4 percent to be precise. It’s good to be succussful at something. It’s also good to see some validation for all of my hard work in this class.

Dumb News: George W Bush is Time’s Man of the Year. Nuff said.

We got most of the Christmas shopping done this weekend. That’s a load of my chest. I get mixed emotions about Christmas. I’m not religious at all, so that aspect of it does nothing for me. But of course, there are many aspects of Christmas, in this day and age, that are removed from religion. I celebrate it mostly because the kids enjoy it and my mother would be mortified if I outright ignored it. I tend to ignore the religous bits and focus on things I agree with: Peace on Earth, Giving, So on and so forth.

There are more reports of Torture from Iraq. Can we do more to enrage the people of the Middle East? or the rest of the world for that matter.

I’ve been keeping up with my diet of keeping my daily caloric intake under 1500 calories. After 3 weeks, I’ve lost 26 pounds. I’m happy that the wieght is coming off. I’m disturbed that after losing 26 pounds and looking in the mirror, there is obviously more to lose.

What is it I like about my Job?

December 19, 2004

Its good to be back. It’s been over a week since my last post and I’m sure the small portion of the blogosphere that realizes I exist, has written me off for an abandoned blog by now. It’s been an ugly week, to say the least. I want to tell you the story of my bad week, and since it is tied in with my job, I’m going to pepper it with a bunch of technical geekspeak, but don’t let that get you down, you’ll get the gist of it.

It started off last Friday with this Voice over IP (VoIP) Project. My biggest contribution to this project was to set up a new VLAN on our networking infrastructure. Basically, instead of running a completely new infrastructure for the phones, we would use our existing data network, but we would create a Virtual network for the phones to operate on. Nifty idea, but we didn’t have any VLANs and I had no idea how to set them up. We set up a conference call with another division that had already implemented a similar set up. That was extremely helpful and by about 4:30 I had a plan together for what I needed to do. Unfortunately, it involved reconfiguring 15 switches. I spent the next 10 hours tracking down the relevant data about each switch reconfiguring it and documenting how I had set it up. What made it worse was my boss kept stopping in for “progress reports” on how I was doing. He was obviously impatient with the progress I was making. I explained that the fact that no one had documented how the switches were set up initially meant I had to: physically walk to switch, climb up and look at the back of it to get its MAC address, so I could in turn determine its IP address. This only ticked him off more, probably because he was the guy who deployed them with out taking the time to set them up in a standardized fashion or to document that set up.

Around 2:30 AM, I finished as much as of the set up as I could. I couldn’t go any further, because we still had contractors running cable and some of the switches were not connected yet. I would not be able to finalize the set up until I knew exactly how they were going to connect back to the rest of the network and there was some doubt about that because they were running short on materials. I brought my boss up to speed on where I was and discussed the plan for Saturday. When I got in my car and drove home, almost 20 hours had passed since I had arrived at work Friday morning.

I took a two hour nap and then got back up and went back to work to meet the phone contractors. When I got there, I found a note from my boss saying that they hadn’t finished cabling we would have to wait until Sunday to rollout the phones. I worked with the contractors to get the switch set up and go over some infrastructure stuff. We plugged in a phone and after trouble shooting some SNAFUs got the phone to work with the switch over my new configuration. After 8 hours or so we had taken care of everything that we could without the cabling being completed. So I sent the phone guys home and called my boss brought him up to speed, he said that the cabling would be done by Sunday morning. So I went home again.

My wife and the kids weren’t there so I figured I’d watch some movie on HBO and catch a nap. When I turned the TV there was no cable. This wasn’t really a surprise, the cable company’s, Adelphia, online payment system had been FUBAR for 2 months, and their customer service number for that only operated 9 to 5 weekdays. I hadn’t bothered to call them from work or to write out a check and pay it the old-fashion way. I called customer service and told a very nice lady how ticked I was about the service, the lack of HD, the inconsistency of the cable modem service. Then I let her debit the money out of the checking account so I could watch some TV. Star Trek:Generations was on one of the movie channels so I watched that. I never did get that nap.

Sunday morning I walked into work to find my boss napping in a chair in the lobby. He had been there all night with the cabling guys. He stayed long enough to make sure he had communicated with the phone guys and then he was out of there. I spent the day trying to set up the remote switches that were now connected, and answering questions and solving problems for the phone guys. We got all of the phones deployed and the trunks cut over by 4:00 PM. I sent the phone guys home, called my boss to update him, and then starting inspecting workstation to workstation to ensure that all of them were connected to the new cabling that was run. There was a lot of stuff that just wasn’t quite right, it took me until 8:30 PM till I got it so I was confident enough with the set up to leave for the night. For the those keeping score, that’s 40 hours in three days, a 72 hour week. Monday morning I got in at 8 AM (as usual) and my boss was pissed, I didn’t know why but I figured it was cause there were some lingering Cabling SNAFUs to get worked out. Monday was an 11 hour day (with no break for lunch,) troubeshooting and working out those little things that always pop up.

I felt pretty good about the project, I had learned a whole new technology and implemented it. I had been able to take care of the phone guys during they day while my boss took care of the cable guys at night. I was a little plucked that no one had bothered to say “thanks” or “good job” to me, but that’s life. Then Wednesday, my boss hits me with “he is not satisfied with my performance.” He gave some “verbal warning” because I did not complete something he asked me to do on Tuesday. I didn’t complete it because he asked me to take care of it around 4 PM that day, I made the assumption (apparently a poor one) that it could get taken care of Wednesday morning. I explained that and he said I should stayed until it was done. I told him that I had to leave at 5 cause I was picking a kid up from day-care. He intimated that day-care issues were no excuse. Then he told me that he was mad at me because I didn’t show up early on Monday. He didn’t ask me to come in early, he said it should have just been “instinctive.” He said he was so mad about it that he was unable to talk to me about until that moment, it took him two days to calm down. I apologized for not coming in early, I had no idea that he expected that. He was obviously still angry. He then accused me of not checking all the workstations Sunday night. Apparently, he had found one that wasn’t switched over. I explained to that I did check them all even the area in question. Maybe with all the hours worked I missed something or made a mistake, but I certainly had gone to every workstation. He didn’t want hear it.

I’ve been in this job for almost 4 years, and mostly I like it, but I’m getting the feeling it is time to brush of the old resume and find something new.

Done!

December 9, 2004

My ASP.NET project is done! I’ve put an obscene amount of time and effort in to it. It is very good. Actually, relative to the requirements of the class, it is incredible. The cool thing is that the effort was not simply academic (Pun intended.) Once it is graded and I get caught up on my sleep, I will revisit it, clean up some things that didn’t matter in the context of the class. Once it done, up to my standards and customized a little, a friend of mine is going to use it as a web app for her business. Pretty cool. If it ever finds its way to the internet, I’ll let you know.

Now … time to sleep, then from one crazy project to another one that may be truly insane.

All Work and No Play makes Jack a Dull Boy

December 7, 2004

I apologize for the lack of content recently. It seems that at work, I’m expected to … well, work. This has been very inconvenient to me. On top of that I’ve been working feverishly on my final project for my ASP.NET class. Unfortunately, this has left little time for blogging. The good news is that my class is over this week, and my load at work should lighten up as we get closer to year end. It seems that we will be implementing a VoIP system this weekend. Hmmm, a whole new phone system, using new technology and new infrastructure, and the project was put together in less three weeks. It will be implemented in less than two. Maybe I’m wrong, but is sounds like a recipe for disaster to me. Good news: Not my project. Bad news: Not only do I get to help implement, I get to help with whatever fallout occurs.

Elsewhere, al Qaeda attacked the US Consulate in Saudi Arabia. You would’ve thought with all the success the Bush administration says we are having, that something like this could not have happened. Especially, not on the soil of one of our partners in the War on Terror. The situation in the Ukraine is getting ready to boil over. The Russians, doing their best Cold War imitation, are warning the West to stay out of it. It seems they want to be the only country interfering with the election process.

Maybe I’ll get a chance to put up another post this week. Maybe not. Do you think my wife will get irked, if I’m busy catching up my blog and the Christmas Tree hasn’t been put up yet?

The Long Walk (Part 2)

December 2, 2004

Read Part 1

After the incident with the horses we were pretty energized. But it did not last long. The sky turned to an ugly kind of grey. And the mist that had been falling turned to a steady rain. That combined with the distance we had walked and the distance we had yet to go, put a damper on my mood. I slogged onwards.

Every hike I’ve ever walked seems to breakdown the same way. It doesn’t seem to matter whether its 2 miles or 20. First you walk, excited to be on the trail again, full of energy. After a while you settle in, find your pace, resigned to be walking for a while. Eventually, the walking becomes monotonous and you begin “slog.” Slogging is just like walking, but you’re no longer looking around at scenery, you simply put one foot in front of the other, determined to make it to you destination. After you body starts to get tired the slogging is reduced to “trudging.” It’s at this point that your stride shortens and you slow down. I usually don’t lift my feet very well during the trudging. I end up kicking a lot of rocks and roots that way. There is one more stage that can happen in longer hikes, but I will get to that later.

We slogged through fields and pastures in the rain for the next hour or two. We were very conscious of how late it was getting. It would be completely dark by six, maybe earlier with the clouds. We had read a notice in Boiling Springs, that said the shelter at Darlington had been torn down in June, and a new one would not be built until late in the season 2005. At the time, we didn’t worry about it too much, but as the day wore on and the rain showed no signs of letting up, the reality of having to set up a tent in the dark and the rain was weighing down on us too. Although it felt like we making good time, it seemed very unlikely we would reach the sight of the former Darlington shelter before dark.

We made it to the Scott Work Farm around 4. I’m not sure what all goes on there, but they are somehow associated with the ATC. There was a rickety picnic table set up under an overhang next to the barn. We took off our packs and sat down there for a break. I snacked a bit and read through the Trail Log that was there. Many hikers had signed in since June, but there no information in there about the what we might find at the Darlington “shelter.” I saw that someone was sitting on the porch of the farmhouse, so I wandered over to see if I could gather some information about this shelter. As I walked over, a very old German Sheppard hobbled towards me and barked a bit, the lady, sitting on a rocker on the porch, with an overflowing ashtray on the table next to her, yelled to me, “Don’t worry about him, he’s my aardvark alarm. Must be working too. I don’t have any aadvarks in my yard. As a matter of fact, I hear that there aren’t any aardvarks in all of Pennsylvania.”

I asked about the Darlington shelter, and she told me, as she chain smoked, that she hadn’t been up there since they tore it down, but she knew that they had taken a bunch of lumber up there for the new shelter. I thanked her for the information, and we headed out with a glimmer of hope that we would find a shelter or at least maybe a pavilion at our destination.

Even though I was rested and had snacked plenty, I quickly went from slogging to trudging. It was almost 5 o’clock, so we’d been walking for over 8 hours. As the sky got darker, the terrain became more hilly. As we walked up and down small hills, we knew we coming to the end of the Cumberland Valley. All that stood in between us and our destination was a 1500 foot climb. By the time we got to the rigdeline we needed to ascend, it was as dark as midnight. The rain had slowed, but a fog was building in its absence. We walked for a while in the darkness, until it became almost impossible to make out the trail or the white blazes that mark it. We turned on our headlamps, sacrificing our ability to see around in the darkness, for the ability to see what was in front of us. With the fog growing thicker as we walked, and steam rising of our faces, we climbed up the mountain.

I mentioned earlier that there can be one more stage in the progression of a hike. I reached that final stage somewhere while walking on the trail up the mountain. We call that phase the “deathmarch.” It like trudging, but you no longer even think about your destination, you set short goals and you achieve them. “I’ll just make to that rock. I’ll make to the next turn. I’ll get to that tree over there.” On and on it goes. Needless to say, it took a long time to make it to the top of the ridge. Not long after that, we found the trail to the Darlington shelter. As we feared, there was nothing there but some new lumber stacked underneath a tarp and a stack of boards from what apparently used to be the Shelter. Mercifully it stopped raining long enough for us to pitch our tents and cook some dinner. Even though it was only around 7 o’clock I climbed into my tent and went to sleep.

It rained through the night, and while my sleeping bag kept me dry, most every thing else was damp at best. We got up and didn’t really feel like cooking breakfast, so we set about packing our wet gear back into our packs. While we working, two different groups of dayhikers stopped by, to check on the progress of the shelter. We chatted with them and then we were off. It was a decent morning, but we were impatient to get back to our cars and work on drying off. The two and a half mile walk went by quickly and without incident, and I was relieved when we crested the last hill and saw my brother’s SUV.

I know that this trip didn’t sound like much fun. And honestly, it wasn’t one of the best trips we’ve had, but now that I’ve written this, I’m already itching to go hiking again. There is just something about backpacking that calls me back. I think maybe it’s the way everything gets boiled down to what really matters. Food and Shelter. No deadlines, no keeping appearances, no right way or wrong way. As long as you’ve got food and shelter, it will all work out.