This blogging thing is hard.  

I know that some of you would be thinking… no it’s not.

OK the interface for publishing is very simple.  Tweaking your template doesn’t have to be hard.  But blogging.  Week after week.  That is hard.

For me.  Anyhow.  I am the kind of person that can make anything difficult.  I tend to over-analyze things.  Everything.  And it easy to analyze this blogging thing.  

I think when I started I decided I would just do this and didn’t matter what anyone thought.  Of course that kind of decision is easy to make when no one reads your blog.

Honestly, I thought I would give commentary on the news and give my take on different technology issues.  It did not take long to figure out that I don’t want to do that.  

I am very sensitive to my readers.  I don’t have many, but there are a few how are very regular.  You wouldn’t want to scare them off.  So as a result, the blog becomes stale.  It sits in a rut.

Finding something to say, something that is worth reading about.  That is hard.  I don’t care what any of you say.  I am convinced that this is the reason that most blogs seem to have trouble lasting more than six months.  I think this is why people close their blogs and opens new ones.  The container becomes restricting.  Even Wil Wheaton who has been doing this well, for a long time, has noted how nice it is to write at his exile site that he has been using while WWdN has been broken.

There are invisible rules that write themselves as you publish a blog.  I don’t want to talk about this, because I know that so and so who is a good reader wouldn’t like it.  That is what makes the blog different than other types of media.  I have the potential to know a great deal about my readers.  There are some I do not know anything about, but others I know well.  I like that.  But I can’t let it limit me.

That’s hard.  There are people from the real world who read this.  There are regular readers who may have expectations.  They might not, but it feels like it.  I can’t allow myself to limited by that.  I think it makes the blog not as good.  And it makes it no fun.

I’m not making any money off of this.  And I never will.  If it isn’t fun, then what is the point?  

So let this be a warning.  I’m going to talk about shit here that I might not say in the real world.  I might talk about things you don’t like.  Oh well.  Sorry about that.  But I am going to do my best not to think about the fact that you are reading this.  I need to focus on the fact that I am writing this.  I may try some different stuff.  Talk about things that I haven’t before.  I may try some short fiction.  Or I might keep doing the same thing I always have.  If you find it offensive or boring or stupid or wrong or bad… well sorry about that.  I don’t know what to tell you.  But this thing is about me.  Not you.  So consider yourself warned.

And now I have written another post about how I blog.  I excel at that.  What can I say?  I am what I am.